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Soo I bascially had an amazing day today for a couple reason in paticular.. Last week I had found out that there is a kid in one of the groups at TW (tumbleweed, camp i've been working at if you didn't know) that is actually a SON of ADAM PASCAL (aka the guy who played Roger in the movie verison of Rent and was in the original cast on broadway)!!! Today was Parent's day at camp so parents came and would hang out with their kid while they did activies and such. I was hoping for Adam to come, but wasn't sure so I didn't want to get my hopes up. Well, he DID end up coming and although I didn't get to actually formally meet him, was able to get a clear view of him while he was with his kid's group. It was so awesome to see him in real life. Theres a lot of him in his son appearance wise (who is so sweet, especially when he high-fived and hugged me today). I'm hoping for the miracle that he asks me to babysit him or something haha.
On the same subject (sorta), I am pretty damn excited to see Rent, on stage next friday, at the Pantages Theatre. I am going to have to hold myself back from singing the songs, but it is going to be soo worth it. PLUS, the seats are about only 5 rows away from the stage. eeeek.
Anyway, so summer has been pretty chill mostly. I have pretty much gotten used to the schedule of work and dealing with the kids. There are the good and bad days, and I really wish they like served coffee for the counselors cause there have been some times where I am majorily drained. But the kids are really adorable, especially when they constantly ask me "Can I please hold you hand, Stephanie?" or say how much they love me. Next summer I will be able to be an AC (assitant counselor), which you have to be 16 for, so I might do that if I end up not having any other plans. Next week is the last of the 1st session so I will be done working after that and then that weekend is the CIT camping weeked in Malibu. I've become good friends with my fellow CITs and it's great how well we all get along. Oh, and I've offically almost memorized the lyrics to every song from High School Musical due to the fact that the kids on my bus route LOVE listening to the soundtrack. I can't wait to get to sleep in later and relax after the thing is done, but I will be sad when it is. bleh.
Hope you guys are having an unfortgetable summer, especially on your trips, whereas I am stuck in LA all summer. rawr.
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This license plate made my day:
it was on a car parked at school today. hahaha.
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[29 Jun 2005|04:36pm] |
FRIENDS ONLY
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[02 Apr 2005|10:27pm] |
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i just got back from my second time of seeing the sound of music
this time, a bunch of people came from lincoln like saba, danielle, maddy, mana, august, katy, jm, christy and zach and someone else but i dont remember his name lol
and i went with ashley (again lol)
and it was even better
lizzy has SUCH an amazing voice and Amanda did an EXCELLENT job, once again
we were clapping like hell and screaming at the top of our lungs...i could tell that the people around us were gettting pissed hehe
now i am home and exhausted
today i got my hair done with highlights!!!
im gonna take a pic of it once i get a new battery for my camera
anyway, i have been feeling...down lately
some people know why but it's not just that
i feel like lately some people are annoyed or fed up with me
i know i am way too paranoid...but it's really bothering me
my happiness depend a lot on my friends and their opinions
but lately...i am starting to feel really alone
i am getting myself into these messy situations and then have to find a way out
i just really wanna feel accepted or wanted is all
and that if someone has a problem with me or something that im doing to come tell me
tonight i faced a friend about something that was really hurting me..and that took me a lot of courage which i have like zero percent of
and now i dont think one of my once close friend likes me anymore...she just...doesn't act the same towards me anymore
please u guys tell me if im doing something wrong
i love each and every one of u to death..and just wonder if u care for me too
im not saying none of u do, but i just ponder now...what people think of me, what they are saying about me...and i never seem to be able to think its good
i hate myself sometimes..
and im not fishing for any compliments or anything
just comfort is all i ask
love u all, always and forever
~steph~
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woooah i haven't update since sunday
bleh anyway school has been ok
we have these projects for american studies due tomorrow
and were getting our asian american unti exam back to....i reallyyyy hope that i didn't fail
asians are such awesome people
were now learning something in math that is uber confuzzling and my teacher is the most effing annoying teacher...ever
ooo but i am doing better in guitar! i can play wild thing...which is like super easy but it still excites me that i can play it lol
i am hanging out with some different people now to
spreading myself out, i don't like keeping myself to just one group anymore
im so stoked for summer...and then high school
im going to tumbleweed from july 18- august 12
and then who knows, i will go where the summer takes me :-)
i have no school on friday w00t
then im leaving for hawaii next tuesday, i hope the weather is gonna be warm
today i went shopping for boardshorts and some tank tops cuz i had like none
i got to go finish my hw or else i will be up 'till like 11
~steph~
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[02 Mar 2005|02:03am] |
FRIENDS ONLY
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ok ive decided now
that on certain entries
im gonna keep them as freinds only
i dont want to deal with this shit
when people get pissy with me for saying how i feel
but for those who commented and supported me
i love you all soo much
i might end up just deleteling my lj
cuz its causing way to much drama in my life
then again....i might not
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She asked him if he liked her, he said no.
She asked him if she was pretty, he said no.
She asked him if she was in his heart he said no.
She asked him if he would cry if she walked away, he said no.
So she walked away, trying not to cry ...
He grabbed her arm and said ...
I don't like you, I love you...
You're not pretty, you're beautiful...
You're not in my heart, you're my soul ...
and I wouldn't cry if you walked away, I would die.....
isnt that soo sweet?
i love it. i got it off a myspace bulletin that kaitlin posted
i really wish a guy would say that to me...
anyway, this week went by reallyyyyy fast
nothing to amazing happened
but i did talk out with leah and rory about how i was feeling
and i feel SOO much better now
today was the last day for candy grams to
so i had to do like 10 within like 5 minutes during break
i loved valentines day in elementary school
we would each make our own little bag and decorate it
then on v-day, each of us would put valentines in other peoples bags
and we would sometimes have a party
everyone always got a valentine and no one was left out
ahh those were the days...
today it was raining soooo much
and we had a half day, so i was happy
got home and took a nap for like 3 hours
everyone went to the young angels dance or whatever it was called
i stayed home...doing nada
but its ok cuz i didnt want to be with like 600 other people that i didnt know
i like parties where i actually know a lot of the people
tomorrow i reallyyyyy want to go shopping
my mom said since my sister has abercrombie jeans, then i should be able to get them too
and i want to check out the saks outlet sometime for a pair of seven jeans
o and speaking of clothers, my jacket came
BUT as it turns out, the juicy outlet i got it from
gave me a messup
the tag said medium but it is actually a small
so im gonna save up for a different one..
on sunday i have a dual swim meet (it means there are only two teams. and they compete against each other)
I GET TO SWIM NO BUTTERFLY!!!!
im so relieved
my mom and i made a deal that i would go only if i didnt have to do any butterfly events
soo yea
i really gotta take a better pic of me for myspace
ewww i keep getting these friend requests from these old guys that are like
"hey sexy, lets chat sometime"
so i say back "hey perv, go fuck urself sometime"
lol i know its kinda lame, but its all i can think of
ooo and earlier tonight i taught my brother how to play twinkle twinkle little star on the guitar!!
lol he kept complaining that his fingers hurt from pushing down on the strings
i have decided i am gonna practice more too
and by the halfway point of this semster, i want to have learned a new song
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last night was great
i went over to saba's house
and we went to 3rd st
met up with danielle and josh and zach
and then hung out and ya
then i went to saba's bball game
her team wonnn. lmao i was cheering soooo loud
haha people had already started to arrive before we got home
so we get back and get ready
then everyone comes and we hang
the food was chowed down within like 5 minutes. expecially the muffins
then we played music and daaanced
and as planned, we watched the grduge
but everyone was being SOO loud (including me but i stopped)
so it got kinda restless but eventually we made it through the whole movie
omg i dont think ive heard ANYONE scream as loud as we all did.
i went deaf for like...the rest of the night
then the guys left and a few girls
and me, mana, evan, saba, katy and mikki had a sleepover
lol we talked about boys, sailor moon (yes, sailor moon) and life
we were up till like 2:15, and most of us fell asleep except for mikki
who was up till i dont know lol i love her
we had a boob poking war
anyway, we woooke up and watched the lincoln 7th grade yearbook
lol i dont even go to lincoln but it was funny as hell
soo ya...then we all left..i came home...and thats where ive been for the rest of the day
i hope my new juicy jacket comes in the mail this week....and my ipod adpater cuz i cant re-charge my ipod without it
And will people please stop saying that im denying it when i say im ok with what's going on right now
it's my businuss and if i say im ok, then just leave it at that
sure its hard to get over, especially for someone like me. but im doing fine
im getting by, and if i need someone to help or support me, then i know i have friends that would and im so thankful for that
but really, it is how it is
~steph~
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well letss see...
last night i went over to leah's house and we walked ALL the way over to 3rd st from 20th (where she lives) my feet were hurting like an effing motherrrr cuz i was wearing my converse.
anyway, we bought tickets to coach carter but got bored like halfway through the movie
so we walked around
we saw this really amazing woman who was singing and playing guitar with this other guy
i bought a cd and me and leah got her to autograph it for us
soo now if she becomes famous, we have it lol...but also she was really nice
ummm then sara came over when we got home
we watched without a paddle
its ok but more of a guys movie
thennn sara went home
and me and leah crashed
today shannon came over to leah's
and we hung out for a bit, went to montana
lmao leah tried to skateboard on shannon's board and fell right on her ass
it was the funniest thing ever
she went like flying in the air
went back to leah's watched tv and such
awhile late stefan and jp (who i just met) came over
then sara
but then my mom came to get me so i couldnt really hang with them
went to swim practice
now im home
meh
i REALLY need a new word, leah's is crusty and is making me swear not to use it
grrrr
I HAVE A HALF DAY OF SCHOOL TOMORROW!!
YUSSSSSS
i am planning to go with leah and other people to 3rd st and see hide and seek
the girl in it (dakota fanning i think her name is) scares the shit out of me
meh...valentines days is coming up...
i really wish i had a boyfriend to celebrate with
one that would give me a teddy bear or flowers or something
and then have a special night planned for the two of us
*sigh*
i want my fairy tale romance to come true
BUT instead of moping around, leah, sara, me and whoever else will hopefully watch the notebook
but it sucks cuz valentines day is on a monday...meh
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sorry for not updating but...
last night i FINALLY made a myspace account
it took me like an hour to figure everything out but i did it
here's the url: http://profiles.myspace.com/users/16899995
w00t
anyway, nothing really happened this week
griffin's bday was on tuesday...i cant believe he is 14 now
and i got my schedule for the new semester
im taking improv this year instead of drama, and i still have guitar and yoga
and a free period to :-)
i REALLY want to do something fun this weekend
i havent seen soo many of my lincoln friends for soo long
and i havent been to 3rd st either since last year ahhhhhhh
omg omg the grudge comes out on dvd and video febuary 1st!!!!
aaaand degrassi comes back febuary 18th!!!
i have a feeling febuary is gonna be a gooood month for me
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omg yesterday was SOO much fun...i missed disneyland soo much. what sucked tho is that a lot of the rides were closed for repairs and to get prepared for disney weird 50th anniversary celebration or something. anyway, we went on sooo many rides...or at least i felt like it. as far as i can remember...we went on thunder mountain 4 times, indiana jones twice, pirates of the carribean, star tours, autopia, mr.toads wild ride, snow white's scary adventures, and something with roger rabbit (i can't remmeber the name) there is probably more but i just cant remember right now. it was such a doozy. splash mountain and haunted mansion were close so that really sucked...but o well. we never made it to california adventure..which was ok with me cuz i didnt have to make up an excuse not to go on tower of terror hehe.
today i think im gonna relax and make it a "stay at home" day. ya kno, just watch tv, sleep, listen to music, stuff like that. i probably wont follow through with this but..its worth a try. omg omg edward scissorhands is on!!!! must go watch.
~steph~
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life can be such a pain in the ass sometimes
u just feel like u wanna kill urself to make the torture stop
and u keep trying to get away from it all
escape reality
but sometimes, it just doesn't help
i've tried over and over again
to tell myself
that whenever something bad happens
some good comes from it
and im always searching for that something
but i end up never finding it
i wish so badly
that i could be able to see
into my own future
so that maybe, i would be prepared
for the pain and suffering
and maybe, just maybe
that would make it less severe
ok thats just a random poem that i thought off the top of my head...but i was trying to get all my feelings out in it. anyway, this past week was ok, tuesday wasn't that great, but wednesday was great, even tho i stepped in pizza cuz the guys put this nasty piece that we put like pudding and all this other stuff on, put it outside the girls bathroom door, and of course i dont see it when i come outside. anyway, today was a pretty meh kinda day, good and bad. i failed my american studies exam AND got a bad grade on my presentation. lunch was pretty good, nothing to special. but i found out some pretty terrible news when i got home. im not sure if he doesent want me to put this up here, but im going to anyway. see, jon wasn't at school today, but i thought that he was just sick. when i got home i find out that he was expelled from new roads!! and to make matters worse, instead of going to paul revere like he had planned, he has to go to boarding school instead! i might not see him for close to 2 years...i couldnt stop crying. i never expected this to happen. life is going to be so different without him...
BUT the good right now is that tomororw there is no school, and rory is taking me, leah, griffin and ruby to disneyland as a celebration of her bday!! im sooo excited. what a way to spend a day off from school. it's gonna be a doozy.
tis all for now,
~steph~
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B: Your Beauty lies
in Plain Sight. Plain, simple and the girl next
door. People tend overlook you as you are the
"normal girl", but you're actually
very beautiful. And you have plenty about you to
set you apart, but more that
lets you blend. People love the stability you have
because as others may come
and go, you will always be there and you may always
be the same. You like simple
things and that's what people like about you. You
most likely enjoy things most
consider normal, like movies, shopping, that sort
of thing and are very friendly
and probably have many friends. You are sweet and
kind and that shows on you,
but you're also strong and not very naive. You're a
rather well-rounded
individual. Even though some people pass you off as
just another girl, shrug it
off because they don't know what they're
missing.
Some Things
That Represent You:
Element:
Earth, Light Animal: Cat Color:
Pinks, Blues, Browns Song:
Girl Next Door by Pilot Expression: Simple
Smile
Gemstone:
Alexandrite Mythological Creature: Fox
Demon, Hobbit Planet: Jupiter Hair
Color: Light Brown Eye Color:
Brown
Quote:
"To the world you may be one person, but to
one person you may be the world."
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You like the ones that understand you.
What kind of guy are you most attracted to? (CUTE anime pics)
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aww the pic is so pretty...
anyway school was meh-esh today
tried to forget all my drama and problems and just enjoy the day
it kinda worked...but i still got upset
why can't i just accept the fact that hes gone...and never coming back?
i gotta move on...find me another guy...if ur willing to help me find one please do...lol
gots to heal this broken heart of mine
i wanna say thanx to ALL my friends that have been there for me..i feel like i dont thank you guys enough..theres too many of you to remeber so this one goes out to ALL of you!!! i love u guys sooo much, ur the best friends anyone could ever ask for. i don't think i would be able to live if i didn't have u guys there by my side. i hope u feel the same way about me hehe
NO SCHOOL TOMORROW!!! YESSSSS. i love the rain!!
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god these past couple of days have been hell
yesterday i got pissed off cuz my boyfriend and a bunch of other ppl were going to century city and didn't even bother to tell me
but in the end it all worked out and we saw the movie "white noise"
it was scary...at some parts...
then i thought everything was going great until some drama started stirring and it got kinda hectic
and ashley was getting pissed off at jon and then we were all trying to figure out how we were all gonna get home and meeeh...
anyway so i just stayed with ashley,lexi, aya and amanda...while everyone else went back to sara's.
i felt like shit...i knew something even worse was gonna happen
and of course, it did
later last night i get a call from ashley and she says "hun...ive got some bad news"
i dont wanna say it right here
but right after she told me i broke into tears
and couldn't stop
i tried talking with leah and hayley about it..but i could barely think
so i just crawled into bed and cried myself to sleep
and yes, i did it...i did it again. i didn't want to...but there was nothing else to turn to
i feel so ashamed of myself...
anyway, so today hasn't been that great either
stayed all day in my room
blahness...
why do i let myself get into these situations?
why do i bother with getting into relationships if i always get hurt?
i thought this was gonna be different...i had a really good feeling about this one
it's all my fault, for making him wait so long...for not giving into my feelings fast enough
it's always my fault
nothing i do is ever right
im worried it never will be...
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